Self-Knowledge Question #15: What's Holding Me Back

[ng_moonmoth]

Initial post on what I'm doing here.

15. What is your biggest self-limiting belief?

That expressing my gender identity needs to wait until I can figure out how to keep the damage to the relationships I value to a level I consider acceptable. Something that may alter that belief is my continuing improvement in understanding the harm suppressing my gender identity does to those relationships.

Comments

[ravan]

It's difficult to push against a lifetime of conditioning and gender-boxing. The fact that my public common gender doesn't match my inside (dykish female vs agender non-binary) is liker a pebble in the shoe - irritating when moving among others, not there when I am still within myself. Getting people to shift how they see me when I still struggle with my own pronouns is tough.

I recognize the discomfort.

I wish I no longer had to conform/perform my assumed gender, but I can't retrain all my coworkers and I'm not sure I want all of the attention that insisting on my pronouns would cause.