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Self-Knowledge Question #21: Shame
Jan. 31st, 2019 12:33 pmInitial post on what I'm doing here.
21. Is there anything in your life that you are ashamed of?
That I allowed myself to be brainwashed of the gender-nonconforming aspects of my identity so thoroughly that I was not even aware of my gender identity, let alone able to explore and affirm it, as spouse and I forged our relationship. I can't help but think things would be much better if we had built our relationship on what is, rather than on a facade concealing it. I continue to believe we can reshape our relationship into something worthwhile, but doing so is proving difficult and painful.
21. Is there anything in your life that you are ashamed of?
That I allowed myself to be brainwashed of the gender-nonconforming aspects of my identity so thoroughly that I was not even aware of my gender identity, let alone able to explore and affirm it, as spouse and I forged our relationship. I can't help but think things would be much better if we had built our relationship on what is, rather than on a facade concealing it. I continue to believe we can reshape our relationship into something worthwhile, but doing so is proving difficult and painful.
